After we tucked Lily into bed this evening, I proceeded to sit up, awake in our room and stare, mesmerized, at the monitor screen. You see, one of the perks of parenting in the twenty first century (the latter years) is that we have accessible to us, a bevy of gadgets and gizmos with which to cheat* (at parenting) with. If I had a nickel for every time an older (certainly more sage and wise) family member exclaimed "We didn't have fill in gadget here when I was a new mother", well, I'd have a few bucks. Nonetheless, our monitor is earning it's keep and serving us well, if for no other reason than to spy on and chuckle at our sweet but mischievous 13 month old daughter.
I lay awake at night and stare at this.
As I watch her wiggle, squirm, sing and talk (baby gibberish, mind you) herself to the land of nod, I can't help but smile. There were some days when I wasn't sure we would get here. She seemed too precious, too small, too amazing for any change to take place. I wanted to freeze moments and simultaneously, fast forward so as to hear how her laugh would sound. And I know better than to wish the days away, after all, we're already past the big ONE YEAR birthday and I am still wondering where my fragile, helpless infant daughter has gone so quickly.
I have regrets about not writing from day one of our pregnancy but alas, I am going to start now. Better late than never, right? Besides, any one who knows me is aware that I am not the person always toting the camera. I am built differently and usually end up living in the moment (and wishing later that I had bothered to take a photo or two). Thankfully we're blessed to have very talented and documentation oriented individuals in our family! It's not my forte, however this is my feeble attempt to write the days. When our memories have dulled ( and I hear the correlation of memory loss to quantities of children is a negative one) this will be great fun to look back on and remember.
So, here's to my first post as Lily James Olsen's mother (Mamama as she prefers) Thank you my darling for changing my life in ways that you will only truly understand once you have children of your own. You are God's greatest gift to us and you make each day brighter than the last. How is this possible?!